Being in this new place, I am still getting to know this new piece of earth, and all the plants and the animals that live here and were here before us.

Starting over all fresh, I can see the way the land shifts to me with how I live, the ways I walk, the things I need from it.

I can see so clearly how I rest in the earth mother’s arms, and how she shapes herself to hold me and nourish me.

To be able to see and receive the incredible blessings offered to you is one of the greatest blessings….

I have been working so, so hard on a market garden. I want to survive. I want to make this work….I realize the only way to really win this situation is to do whatever I can to fully financially support myself and my children.  This is the only way, the only path forward to freedom.

After eight months of no support,  my father even paying to feed Ethan’s animals  while I was in the process of moving…. fully supporting me and my children for most of this year, my family and I are drained…. Ethan has won, he has crushed us.

I am ready to let this story die, to leave it behind, this ugly, ugly power dynamic,  and step forward into the beautiful green abundance the earth is offering me.

I am putting all my survival fear into tending, planting,  building. There is hope here, and life,  and love.

Just a few weeks ago, I felt so uncertain about what I could grow and provide – it’s all so new and so different and so hard to get things off the ground. It’s all new to me to grow for markets, this land is new to me, and sometimes I feel so overwhelmed by all the newness and always being called to working outside of the what I know.  Nothing ever feels comfortable or familiar anymore.

One day I came out to the garden, and it was blazing in green. I am astonished by this abundance. Having enough is always about fully enjoying the blessings offered every day – the bright sun, the nourishing rain, the sweet, reverent Earth here beneath our feet, holding us always, and the hope in every little seed.

I have CSA shares available if you’d like to support our new farming adventure!